Sometimes I Run

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Sometimes I Run – poem by Ruelha, inspired by Britney Spears’ song

Sometimes I run; sometimes I hide
If you haven’t deciphered, it comes across as pride
Everything you speak, makes me weak
But I just display my poker face for mystique


There are things about me that are unconventional
Afraid to reveal much, what if they make me unacceptable
And then, I wonder if it’s all just in my head
But, then, how will I get anywhere if I’m so scared


So, I continue to run and hide
Conform to the familiar tide
Sure, the possibilities are endless
But, my anxiety is mercilessly relentless


Sometimes I run; sometimes I hide
All along, feeling lost and alone, deep inside
I'm trying to break free, from my past
But the chains of my history, hold fast


It's a constant battle, every day
Trying to keep my fears at bay
I try to push through, to break free
But my mind just won't let me be


It's a never-ending vicious cycle, of fear and doubt
I wish I could fight myself and find a way out
Maybe, I'll find the courage, to face the sun
And live my life confidently, like it's just begun


So I'll keep on running, until I'm finally free
To escape the demons who’ve been following me
I don't wanna be, so diffident and unsure
Cause, every time I'm alone, I feel the allure


Sometimes I run, to escape the fear
Sometimes I hide, when you are near
Sometimes I'm scared of being vocal and true
But all I really want is to speak with you


To hold you tight, and treat you right
To be with you, all day and night
Maybe, someday, I’ll find a way
To shed these fears, and seize the day


I want to believe in all that you say,
The words you speak take my breath away.
But if you want me, please take it slow,
There are things about me that you should know.


Sometimes I run; sometimes I hide,
From feelings inside that I can't abide.
Sometimes I'm scared, of what could be,
But, deep down, I know, you are the key..


But if you're serious, please take it slow,
There are things about me that you should know.
Sometimes I run; sometimes I hide
When I want to do the opposite, I’m tied


Sometimes, I run; sometimes, I hide.
Warped-up thoughts, it’s not like I can’t decide
I just continue to run and hide
Conforming to the familiar tide


I wish I could find, the courage within
To reveal the emotions, that hide deep within
But fear takes hold, and I retreat
Hoping somehow, my heart you'll meet


Your words leave me breathless, that's no lie
And I often wonder, what's behind those eyes
As always, I never leave my guard and let it show
But what I really want is to let those feelings flow


Sometimes, I run; sometimes, I hide
If only my heart, I could confide
But for now, my feelings lay hidden
Buried deep within, yet totally smitten

– RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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The lyrics of the actual song (Sometimes I Run by Britney Spears) that inspired me…

You tell me, you’re in love with me

Like you can’t take your pretty eyes away from me

It’s not that I don’t want to stay

But every time you come too close, I move away

I wanna believe in everything that you say

‘Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There’s things about me, you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I’m scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, be with you day and night

Baby, all I need is time

I don’t wanna be so shy

Every time that I’m alone, I wonder why

Hope that you will wait for me

You’ll see that you’re the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say

‘Cause it sounds so good

But if you really want me, move slow

There’s things about me, you just have to know

Sometimes I run

Sometimes, sometimes I hide

Sometimes I’m scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, be with you day and night

All I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, be with you day and night

Baby, all I need is time

Come, just hang around and you’ll see

There’s nowhere I’d rather be

If you love me, trust in me

The way that I trust in you

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I’m scared of you

All I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, be with you day and night

Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I’m scared of you

All I really want is to hold you tight

Treat you right, be with you day and night

All I really want is to hold you tight

Be with you day and night