Big Big World

I’m still Daddy’s little girl
Ill-equipped to handle all that did unfurl
Twenty-four years since catastrophe struck
Uprooted from the ground, got plucked


Sure, I’m a big girl
And, it’ll be absurd if I lay curled
All the things that could have been
Dreaming about erasing all I’d seen


So much of life, learned on my own
Independent, not by choice, grown
Obviously, I’d have it another way
If destiny ever asked for my say


But, I’m a big girl
Forced to step into the world
Without my hero cheering me
Embraced chaos, to escape reality


But, if I stop running and look back
It’s been quite a distorted track
Though dodged, overtaken, and outrun
Incomparable, the loss of a loved one


I’m a big girl
In a big world
It’s not a big thing
I stayed there clinging


Though it’s cold outside
No longer can I hide
Time to bury the imaginary corpse
In shadows, it’s been whispering, talks


I can stay here, wondering why
Fearing abandonment and goodbyes
Fantasize about time travel
To avoid shoving mud and gravel


But, I’m a big girl
In a big world
No longer can I yearn like this
So, here’s my goodbye kiss


May your soul rest in peace!

– RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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The lyrics of the actual song (Big big world by Emilia) that inspired me…

I’m a big, big girl

In a big, big world

It’s not a big, big thing

If you leave me

But I do, do feel

That I do, do will

Miss you much

Miss you much

I can see the first leaf falling

It’s all yellow and nice

It’s so very cold outside

Like the way I’m feeling inside

I’m a big, big girl

In a big, big world

It’s not a big, big thing

If you leave me

But I do, do feel

That I do, do will

Miss you much

Miss you much

Outside, it’s now raining

And tears are falling from my eyes

Why did it have to happen?

Why did it all have to end?

I’m a big, big girl

In a big, big world

It’s not a big, big thing

If you leave me

But I do, do feel

That I do, do will

Miss you much

Miss you much

I have your arms around me

Warm like fire

But when I open my eyes

You’re gone

I’m a big, big girl

In a big, big world

It’s not a big, big thing

If you leave me

But I do, do feel

That I do, do will

Miss you much

Miss you much

I’m a big, big girl

In a big, big world

It’s not a big, big thing

If you leave me

But I do feel I will

Miss you much

Miss you much