That Switch

I have something like a toggle switch
That gives me quite the itch
Sometimes I turn it on
Some others, the power within feels gone

Remember the days, when we had antennas?
Well, such is the case with my mental stamina
Mostly, it's known for neglegient oversight
But if it smells blood, it develops quite the shark's appetite

I'm normally quite calm and always at peace
I don't get anxious easily and my senses are always at ease
I have a lot of patience, so I've been told
Of my faculties, I'm usually in control

So my general state of being is almost like that of a yogi
I'm usually at peace; within myself, I'm always happy
I am organized; I arrange my immediate space
I seldom ever let situations get out of place

So, even when people around me are insulting me
They really can't get into my spirit's sanctuary
It's not because I'm strong and mighty
I just won't realize it; it won't even strike me

As much a I relish observing human behaviour
No matter all the experiences, my base essence and flavour
Won't permit me to beleive anything more than this
That human beings are a portion of divine bliss

I am overtly optimistic and always see
The good in almost each and everybody
Besides, I beleive we need to cut people some slack
Instead of jumping to our defences and springing to attack

Since I believe human beings are inherently good
I treat them with respect, dignity, and trust like I should
But, if someone frequently cross outstretched boundaries
They'll distub me while I'm levitating, and cause me worries

I'll not notice a million sins, and everything can get past me
I have an extreme threshold; but I'm still human, you see
If you manage to detach me from my meditation
My senses will snap into quite an alert-mode situation

And then suddenly, I'll remember irrelevant details I myself never knew
I'm exceptionally good at deconstructing an aftermath; I don't know why I was cabin crew
Things like colours, associated smells, background noises, placement, date, and time
Suddenly, I'll recall the minutest detail if I invest myself in solving a crime

I know I'm absolutely capable of being a human lie-detector
I have a fairly good understanding, through experience, of human behaviour
But it takes away a lot of my peace
I prefer to close my peepers and be at ease

I have an invisible on-off switch
Being in a state of constant attention makes my soul twitch
I normally do not notice anything and all my senses are toned down
I prefer keeping my switch 'off' or I'll have to roam around with a perpetual frown

True, I make a lot of avoidable mistakes, and fall into wells
But, if the switch is on, almost everything and everyone, it repels
Because it notices each and every discrepancy
I prefer not to constantly over-analyze inconsistencies

I'm an extreme case; I'm either extremely alert or too callous
Balance is an unknown term in my world's palace
I could be asleep in a storm, earthquake, or a ruckus ...quite pleasantly
Or I could, in the midst of serenity wake up with the drop of a pin, disturbingly

Do you really want to play poke-the-bear?
Think about it? Once that switch is on, I'll be too aware
I'll get the mental charts out, with subsets, pies and bars ...to do an entire thesis
Regression, unresolved/unknown preconception/childhood trauma, and Freudian rhesis

Don't make me cross that threshold
I, honestly prefer keeping my blindfold
But, isn't it funny that I have this on-off switch? 
For a semblance of balance ...if only I could ditch!

Just let the bear hibernate
Unless in the aftermath, you want to participate!

- RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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