Oh Vulnerable Pump

Ruelha

This poem is purely literary. Please read it with an open mind and out of respect for the written word. To me, writing is my life. There is nothing I love more. I have a very creative imagination. I have always written from my heart …about topics that I am passionate about – Christianity, makeup, melancholic poetry, food, romance, women’s issues, soulful music, narratives etc. Given the circumstances, my gender, situation, geography etc, I feel the need to put up a disclaimer everytime I write a romantic piece. Everyone is entitled to an opinion. But, please don’t interpret this poem in a way it was not intended. That is just my humble request. 

Oh Vulnerable Pump
Why are you afraid?
Don't you trust for what you prayed?
You're feeling vulnerable.
And it's making you uncomfortable. 
The thoughts in your mind.
You play back and rewind.
Constantly attempting to analyze.
Yet still you have not realized. 

Your heart is all over the place.
While you stand by with a poker face.
You don't want to feel vulnerable. 
Because you know it'll be a struggle.
Not again, the cycle of unrequited. 
After the excitement of being united.
Are you the only one who still feels?
While the rest of the world thinks rationally and deals!

You're so afraid of lying naked on the floor.
Emotions you've tamed and been hiding indoors.
You're trapping not just your vulnerability.
This happens purely because of your insecurity.
If you knew the dimensions and stretch.
You'd go out on a limb and play fetch.
With all of your heart.
Just like at the start.

But, things are not the same.
And you're just avoiding heartache and pain.
It's so easy to say you don't care.
Than to say I'm confused in despair. 
You'd rather be known only unto yourself.
Than lay down as an open page on the nearest bookshelf.
So, you won't let them have a clear read.
Cos you don't want to repeat and on bitter herbs to feed.

You may not react to all that they're saying.
But, you're just afraid to demonstrate feelings in vain.
Words and doings are definitely affecting you.
But you're doing your bit and controlling the view.
You may look straight and unaffected. 
Several times in the mirror, this look you've perfected.
You dissipate your emotions in ambiguous obscurity.
Lest it manifests your vulnerable insecurity.
Yes yet still, call upon me.
Call my name and I'll come freely.
Break these bonds of fear and ambiguity. 
Whisper how you want and need me.
Yes, you need to say it out loud verbally.
For me to take you back to that valley.
But right now I'm feeling vulnerable. 
Cueing into the walls you built, I'm subtle.

I disembogue into every thought, word and deed.
But, I've bowed down to my faculties and paid heed.
Dear mind, why are we never in absolute agreement?
Incorrigible I usually am, with my untethered judgement.
I want to make those same mistakes again.
But let me dwell upon that thought before saying Amen.

-RUELHA
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29 Comments

  3. SMiLes… Mind, HeART, SPiRiT SoUL iN Balance
    A Work of Art A Tight Rope Dance Higher And
    Higher Until

    Ya

    Don’t

    Fall Again..

    True Again

    There are People

    Who Inoculate Us

    For A Life Time

    This Way

    Is This

    Good Or Is That

    Bad Only HeART

    Will Speak to This

    With SPiRiT oF SoUL Free

    Dance And Song Continues for What’s Next..:)

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  4. Very good Ruelha. The diction is exact and meaningful. The rhetorical questions lend an interesting and curious beginning. Nice to see that you have consistently stuck to a uniform rhyme pattern throughout without missing on the thoughts and feelings. The strain of introspection is running through just fine, subtle and sweet. Keep writing 👍🙏

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