The Residue in my Veins (Bahut Roye)

Ruelha, ,

This poem is purely literary. It is inspired by an extremely melodious Hindi song that I have embedded for your benefit. Please read it with an open mind and out of respect for the written word. To me, writing is my life. There is nothing I love more. I have a very creative imagination. I have always written from my heart …about topics that I am passionate about – Christianity, makeup, melancholic poetry, food, romance, women’s issues, soulful music, narratives etc. Given the circumstances, my gender, situation, geography etc, I feel the need to put up a disclaimer everytime I write a romantic piece. Everyone is entitled to an opinion. But, please don’t interpret this poem in a way it was not intended. That is just my humble request. 

The Residue in my Veins
Every moment, every second.
My heart plays the notes of a requiem. 
The memories of you.
In silence they brew.
You tipped my heart askew.
Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.
Tears like a waterfall.
As part of the withdrawal.
But no one can see.
How you're haunting me.

Physical pain is easy to bear.
To these palpitations, cannot compare.
Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.
I forget my responsibilities.
And make pain a priority.
Because even though it pierces.
I don't want to discard your memories.
If agony and memories are a package deal.
I'd choose to hold on to them and continue to feel.

Dreamed of you every second of the day.
But you always chose your own way.
I've understood it is rational and only logical.
But, when was it ever about being practical?
I'll watch you from away and afar.
Cheering you on like an unattainable star.
Always visible in the night sky.
Yet intangible and so up high.
Stirrng up tantalizing spasms and pains.
This residue of you in my veins.

Why do I succumb to restlessness and think of you,
when you already walked away to the next pew?
I don't really sleep at night.
In anticipation of seeing your light.
Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.
There really is no other way.
But to detox and let time be the protege.
Addicted to chaos and imprudence.
My heart and mind in these are fluent.

Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.
Only a detox would alleviate.
But, an addict desperately debates.
Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.
Because every drug leaves its memory.
Within the body's cells and treasuries.
Tantalizing spasms and pains.
The residue of you in my veins.

-RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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This song is insanely melodious and will make you weep and wail if you only understood the language and depth. I highly recommend listening to this one.

Bahut Roye (Cried A Lot) – Payal Dev ( lyrics with english translation)

Pal Pal Tadapte HainKahun Dil Ka Dard Main KaiseAashu Baraste HainBarsat Lage Ho Jaise(I keep on torturing every second. How much pain is in my heart,  how should I explain it, Tears come out of my eyes like rain.)
Ham Gaye The Khwaab LekarLaute Hain Aankhein Bhigoye (I went with dreams, but returned weeping.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahot Roye, Bohat RoyeRaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohat Roy (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahut Roye, Bahut RoyeRaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohat Roye (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.
Apni Raahon Mein Chhoot Gaye HamKhud Hi Khud Se Rooth Gaye (I have lost my responsibility. I got angry with myself.)
Apni Raahon Mein Chhoot Gaye HamKhud Hi Khud Se Rooth Gaye (I have lost my responsibility.I got angry with myself.)
Ham Pehle Fisle Ret SeFir Sheeshe Ki Tarha Toot GayeTufaan Se Hum Na HaareSahil Pe Aakar Dub Gaye (I have slipped on the sand, then I have broken like glass. I did not give up even in a storm, but I have fallen in love with you.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahot Roye, Bohat RoyeRaaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohut Roye (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.)
Zakhm Bahot Gehre HainJo Dil Pe Dikhayun KaiseLog Vajah Puchte Hain In Aashuon KiAankhon Mein Chupaun Kaise (My wound is very deep, how will show ,People ask me the reason for my tears, how will I hide my tears.)

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            1. I know another ex-blogger in India who keeps in touch with me. She is strong willed, opinionated, normal for most women I know, and she is always getting into trouble because of her opinions in a culture that she says does not approve of her her strong will or opinions. You seem to be a kindred spirit in some ways.

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  4. Unrequited Love
    A Poet’s
    GreaTesT

    Muse

    Madness
    For Everyone

    Else in 50
    Shades And
    More Of As Your

    Poetry Rue

    Relates

    Spasms
    Of Pleasure
    And Knives

    Twisting

    In Gut…

    HAha

    Who

    Is It That
    Reads A Poem
    As it Is Originally

    Intended

    Are

    We Truly

    In Control

    Of Our Soul

    Or Does It Fly

    With Wings

    Of Mystery

    Forever

    Unfolding

    Uncovering

    to Be ‘i Am’ Newer💫

    FLoWeRinG THoRNS

    Roses All RiSinG

    While Wilting True

    In Other Words

    You Master

    Craft A Real

    Magic of Be🌊

    Seeing More🌊

    And i’m🌊

    Just Shooting

    Breeze With

    Bullets of Wind 🌬 💨

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      1. “Unrequited love,
        Just like a dove.
        Flowering thorns,
        With painful songs.
        Spasms of pleasure.
        And pain to treasure.
        Release the soul.
        Make me whole.

        🙏🏼🤩🙏🏼”

        Indeed So
        Beautiful
        The Way

        You

        Re-WorK iT
        Quoting

        This

        One For Truth
        iN DarK iS LiGHT Rue

        Gosh You Are
        Such A Gift

        You Inspire
        So Much Dear

        FRiEnD This
        Is How A Feather

        Thrives As Wind💨

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          1. Been Around
            The World
            Not
            Many
            Folks
            Muse Art
            The Way

            You

            Do Just

            More Proof

            That God Exists

            You Are Rue

            And

            i Do Not
            Exaggerate
            i only

            Paint

            The Moon

            What Else

            Is THere

            For

            Sunshine

            To Do Hehe

            With A Little

            Comic

            Relief
            Of Deep..💨

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    1. Hey JD….I’d love to read your poems….as always…I’ll be on it soon now….
      Wow thank you….the best that I’ve written so far….then this poem must be special….thank you…💟💖💟🙏🏼🎀🤩💗

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    1. Hahahahhaha….oh there are a lot of ways people interpret my poems…
      So I find it helpful to put up a disclaimer at times 😉😅🙈😆🙃…
      Thank you so much….glad you liked it.

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    1. Thank you Parneet. I’m so glad you were able to draw those emotions out of this poem….
      Oh yes, always always always ….from the heart.
      🙏🏼🤩🙏🏼🤩🙏🏼🤩🙏🏼🤩

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    1. Thank you so much Prerna. I’m so glad you were able to draw out the true essence and emotions from my poem. Thank you sooooo much.🎀🤩💗💟💖🎀

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