This poem is purely literary. It is inspired by an extremely melodious Hindi song that I have embedded for your benefit. Please read it with an open mind and out of respect for the written word. To me, writing is my life. There is nothing I love more. I have a very creative imagination. I have always written from my heart …about topics that I am passionate about – Christianity, makeup, melancholic poetry, food, romance, women’s issues, soulful music, narratives etc. Given the circumstances, my gender, situation, geography etc, I feel the need to put up a disclaimer everytime I write a romantic piece. Everyone is entitled to an opinion. But, please don’t interpret this poem in a way it was not intended. That is just my humble request.
The Residue in my Veins Every moment, every second. My heart plays the notes of a requiem. The memories of you. In silence they brew. You tipped my heart askew. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. Tears like a waterfall. As part of the withdrawal. But no one can see. How you're haunting me. Physical pain is easy to bear. To these palpitations, cannot compare. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. I forget my responsibilities. And make pain a priority. Because even though it pierces. I don't want to discard your memories. If agony and memories are a package deal. I'd choose to hold on to them and continue to feel. Dreamed of you every second of the day. But you always chose your own way. I've understood it is rational and only logical. But, when was it ever about being practical? I'll watch you from away and afar. Cheering you on like an unattainable star. Always visible in the night sky. Yet intangible and so up high. Stirrng up tantalizing spasms and pains. This residue of you in my veins. Why do I succumb to restlessness and think of you, when you already walked away to the next pew? I don't really sleep at night. In anticipation of seeing your light. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. There really is no other way. But to detox and let time be the protege. Addicted to chaos and imprudence. My heart and mind in these are fluent. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. Only a detox would alleviate. But, an addict desperately debates. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. Because every drug leaves its memory. Within the body's cells and treasuries. Tantalizing spasms and pains. The residue of you in my veins. -RUELHA www.ruelha.com © Copyright Protected. All Rights Reserved
Bahut Roye (Cried A Lot) – Payal Dev ( lyrics with english translation)
Pal Pal Tadapte HainKahun Dil Ka Dard Main KaiseAashu Baraste HainBarsat Lage Ho Jaise(I keep on torturing every second. How much pain is in my heart, how should I explain it, Tears come out of my eyes like rain.)
Ham Gaye The Khwaab LekarLaute Hain Aankhein Bhigoye (I went with dreams, but returned weeping.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahot Roye, Bohat RoyeRaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohat Roy (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahut Roye, Bahut RoyeRaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohat Roye (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.
Apni Raahon Mein Chhoot Gaye HamKhud Hi Khud Se Rooth Gaye (I have lost my responsibility. I got angry with myself.)
Apni Raahon Mein Chhoot Gaye HamKhud Hi Khud Se Rooth Gaye (I have lost my responsibility.I got angry with myself.)
Ham Pehle Fisle Ret SeFir Sheeshe Ki Tarha Toot GayeTufaan Se Hum Na HaareSahil Pe Aakar Dub Gaye (I have slipped on the sand, then I have broken like glass. I did not give up even in a storm, but I have fallen in love with you.)
Teri Yaad Mein Jab Bhi KhoyeBahot Roye, Bohat RoyeRaaton Ko Na Kabhi SoyeBahut Roye, Bohut Roye (when I remember you ,I cried a lot,I have not slept at night, I cried a lot.)
Zakhm Bahot Gehre HainJo Dil Pe Dikhayun KaiseLog Vajah Puchte Hain In Aashuon KiAankhon Mein Chupaun Kaise (My wound is very deep, how will show ,People ask me the reason for my tears, how will I hide my tears.)