Sorry G

Ruelha 
God I'm so sorry I threw you away.
You were the only one who really did stay.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away.
You were the only one who never ever betrayed.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away.
Even though you're the only reason I even have a birthday.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away.
When you're the only one obsessing about me night and day.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
Like an empty bottle of cabernet. 

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
You've stood by me on every rainy day.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
Just so I could have a playful holiday.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
And led myself a bit astray.

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
And now I'm writing you a poem and essay.

When I was too weak.
Darkness I did seek.
You dug me out.
Though I refuse and doubt.

Thanks for skimming it all.
Cos I was about to hug my own downfall. 

God I'm so sorry I threw you away. 
But here I'm back ....for today.

-RUELHA
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  2. Amen. God is our constant; our loving, loyal, heavenly Father. We may stray a bit from God, but He never forsakes us and is always there awaiting and coaxing our return.
    Beautifully written! Resonated with me.

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    1. This poem is similar to a concept in a book called the great divorce book because we choose our heaven through love , forgiveness to all including yourself, repentance, acceptance of God will and good deeds plus faith in the supreme power and guidance from God. The opposite is true but turning back to God is always possible and open for God is overall forgiving and benevolent…

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  4. Ruelha
    Very powerful remember all humans go through the same thing as you, as it is written in Romans 8:26 (NIV) In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. Many times in my own life I have cried out to God because my spirit has been in pray and in pain emotionally, but you are correct God knows the heart of all humans better than we do. Remember to give yourself grace the way that God continues to gives you grace continually.
    Blessings my friend, I will share this on my blog quietmomentswithgod

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    1. Eileen, thank you so much for taking the time to explain. Since you’re a pastor, I think I could use some clarity here….do you believe that verse refers to praying in tongues? Or is it more about God knowing your heart and being present in our fears and tears?
      Thank you so much for your kindness and blessings, as always….
      …and for sharing this poem too.
      Hugs and much love😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

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      1. Not every Christian has the gift of praying in tongues. There are times in our own journey that we are overcome with grief we simply cannot find the words that we want to say to the Lord, that is the time I believe that the Spirit speaks on our behalf. There have been times in my own life with having a daughter chronically sick and I am overcome and scared of what may happen that I simply just cry out to the Lord and in the stillness of my heart I know that the Lord is with me. In the book of Psalm King David tells us to Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10) this is why I have chosen for my blog quiet moments with God, we need to be quiet to be able to hear what the Lord is saying to us at any moment in our lives.
        Blessings my friend

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  5. Most Every Religion That ‘Speaks’ of ‘God’

    Will Not Deny That God Is Alpha Thru

    Omega In Other Words

    All With No Separation

    Clue Separation

    Just Being Served A Salad
    The Aesthetic Make-up was
    So Beautiful That i took A Photo
    Then Perhaps to Share on a Blog Soon

    Counting A Blessing of Connection Now
    To All That is That Way So Colorful Even More

    So Tasty

    So Healthy

    Too Hooray Usually
    Katrina Doesn’t Allow me
    to take Photos of What She

    Cooks as She has difficulty Believing
    Something is ‘Perfect Enough’ Yet Even
    She Granted An Exemption as Long as She
    Was Able to Re-Arrange it a bit to meet Her Perfecting

    Nature Oh Lord once i compared Her to Egyptian Goddess Isis
    And She Said Oh No That Goddess is Ugly Don’t Compare Her to Her

    Hehe Yet there are some Physical Similarities Indeed Slender And Built that
    way kinda Like You With Smiles too Rue.. Anyway Being Disconnected From this

    All in All is A Most Horrible
    Existential Experience as while
    There Are Levels to How Connecting We
    Are In All Feelings And Senses in Moving
    Creating With Others and the Rest of Nature

    That is all that is
    As We Explore More
    Ways to Be Enlightened

    This Way Full of Colors More Like
    A Christmas Tree ever more Beautiful
    Year ‘Round Shining From Within Giving

    Sharing So Much
    More Just the Light
    From Within Motivating
    Us So Much More All the

    Lights The Colors We Spread Out to Others True

    Rue Sadly there is the Realm of Disconnecting Ranging
    From Losing Appreciation For All These Flavors of Existence

    To Not Feeling Anything At All
    Not Even Sensing Anything at

    All Oh My God Piece of Paper existence
    Like a Dead Tree With No Roots Branches
    Leaves Not Even Any Dead leaves to Fertilize

    New

    Grass With

    Leaves of Spring

    Smiles it’s True The More

    We connect to this All in All

    The More We Glow The

    Deeper Our Ocean

    Moves the

    Waves

    Water

    of Our Eyes For All in All Yes You too…

    Yeah.. i remember the BLacKesT Abyss

    of Soul Screaming to The Ceiling to

    Feel Anything At All Yet

    True Rings

    of the

    Tree of
    Hell go Deeper

    As Soon There Would

    Not Even Be A Voice to

    Hell Echoes of Yells Never Heard to See…

    Yeah Baby TRuE i’m Glad i’m Back Be Back Again in a Few Hehe Rue..:)

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    1. Thank you my darling Preeths…
      It’s like we’re kindred spirits na?
      Even when I dig my own grave and want to fall willingly, He won’t let me….I’ve seen that off late. 🤣🤣🤣🤣😅😉

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