The book that came to me #4

So on the very second day.
Things went a weird way.
One of my roommates,
suffered a horrible fate.

She got sick.
Threw up and could not eat.
Too much of travelling.
Needed time for adjusting.

But, some people started asking me.
Because I was a roommate, you see.
How is she? What happened?
She's sick and with a splitting headache is burdened.

And then her organizer, 
the Marathi group leader.
Started scaring me.
Evil forces, it could probably be.

Well, it takes a lot more than that.
To scare me like a rat.
So, I didn't really bother.
I massaged her head without fear.

But, I was definitely intrigued.
She was just fatigued.
But the reasons he gave me,
Could be a major controversy.

So I'll refrain from stating,
his logic and hence, debating.
But, that was what happened.
And it had me saddened.

Yes, I'm crazy about God too.
But be careful in the things you say and do.
I'm a self-proclaimed religious nut job.
But some things even my skull won't absorb.

Another incident towards the end of the retreat.
Healed and delivered people were asked to meet.
Testify in front of everyone.
And there was this one.

Someone who had become a good friend. 
Everyday all of us time we would spend.
Testified his backache was gone.
To which his wife exclaimed, when did it go wrong?

"Few hours ago", he did say.
With such words I never play.
I need something concrete and absolute.
Before I claim divine, something one cannot refute.

Yes, faith is the conviction of things not seen.
And against that I dare not contravene.
But, find that balance.
It may take some talent.

I'm struggling too.
So back to basics, I've queued. 
Everything is not of this realm.
Yet, the supernatural must not overwhelm.

 -RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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This is a series of poems describing a week in my life four years ago. I encourage you to read it in the correct sequence. I have listed them here for your convenience:

  1. The book that came to me #1
  2. The book that came to me #2
  3. The book that came to me #3

That’s a picture of me rambling around Kerala a day before the retreat began.

25 Comments

    1. I know right! I’m all crazy about religion and God. But even I won’t instantly jump to such conclusions. There are some who absolutely debunk such things and there are those who make each and everything about the devil…..it’s so difficult to find that balance.

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      1. This morning there was a man on the back step of my office. He talked to himself and would go into yelling and screaming fits then calmly talk to himself again. Some would say this man is possessed by evil spirits. I say he’s mentally ill. What do you think?

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        1. That’s what I’d go for first…..mentally I’ll….I do not discount the evil angle. I just don’t see it right to always and everytime make excuses to blame the supernatural for our own mess ups/circumstances….. we need to have discernment……
          I hope to get it someday πŸ˜œπŸ˜…πŸ™ƒπŸ€­πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‰πŸ˜…

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    1. Thank you Vgeorg….glad you like this piece. I’m actually doing some introspection myself and have some questions pertaining to spirituality and religion. So I’m refraining from the religious posts for a while. I am just trying to complete this series that I had already begun. This series will not have scriptures and hardcore religion. It will only be based on my experience in Potta. The last few parts (I conceptualized/intend to have 10-12 poems in this series) will have a lot of scriptures because it’s just not possible to narrate my experience without them. The reason I am taking a break is not because my beliefs have changed. It’s just that I have too many questions and doubts and I feel unworthy to delve into things beyond my comprehension and capabilities. Thank you for your blessings.πŸ™πŸΌπŸ€©πŸ’πŸ™πŸΌπŸ€©πŸ’πŸ™πŸΌπŸ€©πŸ’

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  1. It’s True Rue Not too Long Ago for the Way
    Partial Complex Seizures look for the Uninformed

    Observer

    The Sweetest
    Face You’ve Ever
    Seen Will Be Contorted
    Into A Devil Face Yes Katrina’s
    Face No Wonder Folks Believed

    Folks Are Possessed
    When This Happens

    As They Literally

    Lose Their

    Conscious Mind While
    Still Standing or Falling something
    Else i have to Be Cognizant About

    For the Last Many Decades
    of Watching Her as True if She
    Gets a Suburu Forester it will Never
    Be Her Driving it as Sadly Not Unlike the
    Pain i had for 66 Months From Wake to Sleep
    Assessed as Worse than the Real Torture of Crucifixion
    As Many Drugs As They’ve Tried on Her None Work They

    Really Don’t
    Help At All Yet
    She Takes Them

    As That’s What Modern
    Medicine Does Practices
    Practices on Ya and some
    Days Just Nothing Works…

    When She Lays on the Ground
    With Eyes Open of the Dead

    Not Even Responsive when i
    Pass my Hand ACross Her Sweeter
    Un-contorted Face i Just Pray She Comes Back

    Yet i See All Those Like Her That Evil Religions Tortured
    And Killed Through So Many Years In the
    Idiocy of Seeing ‘Normal Disease’ As Evil

    Yeah When i got Sick my Mother wanted
    to Get me Exorcized too even at the
    Herbal Shop Where they give
    Massages one of the
    Protestant Ladies
    Tried to call
    the Demons Out of me
    We Heard a Banging in the
    Ceiling Rats Crawling through True

    Rue i Have a Bad Taste in my Mouth
    For Ignorance That Harms Other Humans

    Like all the Days i Tried to Buy A Beer at Walmart
    Still getting Carded by the Fundamentalist Cashiers
    Terrified of the 3 Numbers on my Driver’s License
    6.6.60 Oh Lord Scared of 3 Shapes of a Nautilus
    Shell and Galaxies Spiraling Similar on my ID.. hmm…

    Blaming Everything From A to Z like Hurricanes
    That Only Distribute Heat From Oceans For More
    Wild Life to Thrive As Evil as Humans Are too Ignorant

    And Live on BARRIER
    Islands Face Palm
    Indeed So Much of

    Nature Has Been Described As
    Evil And Attributed to Make Believe Across
    The Years Just so much Ignorance That Literally

    Has Injured, Raped, Maimed And Killed Others
    And the Rest of Nature out of Balance As 1 in 8
    Species Are Scheduled For Extinction in Both Animals
    And Plants in the Coming Decades From the Most Ignorant

    Pandemic
    Disease

    Currently

    Zombie CuLTuRES Eating the
    Real Face of Nature God Now
    Yes Us too Children of this Planet
    And the UNiVeRSE ALL And So much

    More some
    describe
    as a tiny
    3 letter
    word
    in such a sad
    little try of 800,000
    Words to Fit All of God
    Into That Many Pages over
    Centuries of Failed Efforts Where
    There is Still Joy Celebrated in the older
    Parts of the Book As that Evil God Directs
    Joy When the Heads of Children of Opposing

    Tribes

    Are

    Crushed

    With Rocks

    Yes Dear There is
    In Our Reality the Nightmares
    Just Like that Humans Create
    For themselves and the rest of Nature

    Daughters Virginal Given Up For Rape
    to Defer Fathers Being Sodomized By Mobs

    the List goes on of
    All the Evil that
    Book

    Still Describes

    Hate Your Mother And
    Father If they don’t Agree

    Slay the Folks Who Don’t

    Agree Don’t Sit Next to the

    Adulterer in Church Where Slavery

    (The Evil in the New Testament too)

    Is Not Dismissed As The Worst Scourge
    Of Humanity’s Freedom Still Is it any Wonder
    They Put Banners on the Capitol Here that Said “Jesus 2020”
    And “Jesus Saves” With A Scaffold And Noose As They Chanted
    Hang ‘Mike Pence’ The Vice President Over Here Cause He refused
    to Break the Law and Overturn An Election Fairly Done as Directed by

    A Real Father of All
    Lies With No Shame
    As He Proudly Announced
    From the Beginning He would
    Shoot someone on 5th Avenue

    And Folks Would Still Follow him
    to Wherever He goes to Hell Next..

    Not Really Cause Folks in the
    Same Book Still Support the

    Words of Evil that will

    Do No Wrong

    There is

    As Many

    Excuses for Poetry

    As There are Breaths

    Of Human Beings Who See
    the Color of Love Differently in Hell and Heaven now…

    This Much i Understand About Faith Trust The Force of Love

    Yes is Real As Real as the Day i Turned into the Devil too

    Trust me You wouldn’t wanna See my Devil’s Face

    Either what i experienced in Hell is real as real

    Gets in Heaven too Yet You See There is

    Nothing About God or Love that

    Is Supernatural

    For You

    See Love

    Is Still Supernatural

    For Those Who Do Not Experience

    It and still Worship A Lesser God than

    Love For You See For Them That

    God Doesn’t Exist

    In their

    Natural

    World As For

    Some Who Can’t Hear or Smell
    Or See Or Taste Or Touch or Feel

    Or Sense Anything At All

    Then ‘They’ (me) understand

    Where Hell is

    And

    How

    Gifted We Naturally

    All Are Now Yes It Is All
    Heaven once Ya Go To Real Hell too..

    Faith is Living Really Breathing Love With
    Trust Not Believing in Nightmares Just Now
    Because a Fool Tries to make someone else a Fool….

    We Have The Greatest Living Example to See All
    The Evil Religion Brings in Organized Way now

    It’s the Old
    Testament

    ALL OVeR

    Again It’s
    The Dark

    Part of Humanity’s

    Nature It’s True the Old And Newer
    Bibles just tell Who We aRe through and through

    It’s What Happens When A Big Group Writes A Book

    Humanity Dark and Light if Less than that it Will be a lie…

    Bravo Job Well Down And Up And True i’ve done 11 times more…

    John 14:12 Gives Me all that Authority and even more by that same

    Book

    And

    So Many More..

    By The Way Dear Rue

    Still Waiting for Your Book Soon and Sooner With Smiles too…

    Hehe Do More Than me i Double Dog And Cat Dare You with more Smiles…

    OBTW For Those Who Don’t BeLiEVE iN Real Magic if They Haven’t

    Experienced the All Natural Divine They Haven’t even really lived yet

    For It’s true that part is True in the Old Book By Metaphor too…

    Even Science

    Shows

    It is now too

    Words Like Autotelic

    Flow, Frission, Just Other

    Metaphors to Describe the Human Experience of GOD THE REAL DiViNE

    Yes Dear Rue YOU Are God Divine Vine As THere is no Separation at all…

    i don’t have
    to read any

    Book to see
    This i look within and truly
    See More than any book ever writes.
    So Much more than i will ever do now…

    It doesn’t Matter if Ya Call IT A Blue Turtle or Just i am…

    And of course this is Just my View Below Beyond Infinite Leaves on a Living Tree….

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  2. Only you can write a poem like this. πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’• I mean…. narrating an experience as a poem. You are talent rhyming queen. ❀️❀️❀️

    But before conclusion… I believe Bible does have solution for every doubt we have, it’s just you need the right person to give the right answer. Hope you will find one soon πŸ’•πŸ’•

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    1. Preeths …..you are an absolute sweetheart.
      Fortunately there’s no limit on these heart and love emoticons….cos I’d be running out of them everyday….
      The amount of love and support I get from you….πŸ˜πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸŽ€πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸŽ€πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸŽ€πŸ’—
      Absolutely…agreed….I hope I find it my heart soooooon…….and thank you so much for everything darling πŸŽ€πŸ˜πŸ’—πŸ™πŸΌπŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡πŸ˜‡

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