Toxic Sugar

Ruelha

This poem is purely literary. Please read it with an open mind and out of respect for the written word. To me, writing is my life. There is nothing I love more. I have a very creative imagination. I have always written from my heart …about topics that I am passionate about – Christianity, makeup, poetry, food, romance, women’s issues etc. Given the circumstances, my gender, situation, geography etc, I feel the need to put up a disclaimer everytime I write a romantic piece. Everyone is entitled to an opinion. But, please don’t interpret this poem in a way it was not intended. That is just my humble request. 

TOXIC SUGAR 

Why is that whenever you're back,
I lose my bearings and get off track?
Why is it that I still see,
 that boyish charm that used to be?
Why is that image etched,
keeps warping reality in my head?
Why is it that with you,
I don't really care what is true?
Why is it that though always,
I still have hope this time you've changed?
Why is it that although I see,
each and everything rationally,
This I still cannot accept,
my mind telling my heart it will regret?
Why are you my only weakness,
who makes me shudder in meekness?
Why is it that your mere presence,
takes away my security and confidence?
Why is it that I handed you,
so much power to do what you do?
And why is it that no matter what,
I'll forever be pining for one last shot?
Why is it that when I needed you the most,
you just disappeared and abandoned like a ghost?
What did I ask of you?
Did I not give you understanding too?
You've only been toxic,
and somewhat hippocratic.
But why is it that I still yearn,
and never ever seem to learn?
Days and months, years and decades,
and up until forever, my love doesn't fade?
You know you have that power over me,
and so you use it abundantly.
Please don't come back,
not ever again in my track.
Because, you give me those feelings I'm not supposed,
to feel, and hang my heart out dry as opposed.
The feeling was never mutual.
Although I craved for something more than artificial.
You my love, will forever be.
That toxic sugar my body needs.
You my love, will forever be,
that toxic sugar my soul must see.
You my love will forever be.
that toxic sugar for which my heart pleads.
So don't come back another day.
Because I know you'll never stay.
I cannot be your once in a way.
For a particular rainy day.
Just go away and never return.
And spare me the agony of a burn.
You were never mine alone to claim. 
But wth me, I had memorized only your name.
It took a great deal to claim to forget you.
But, deeper still fondness only grew.
Just go away; please go away.
Because I can't really turn the other way.
Things are far too complicated.
Though true love is never adulterated.
So this is all I have to say,
please just from me stay away.
Because I don't have it within me.
To stop myself, when you I see.

-RUELHA
www.ruelha.com
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28 Comments

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  8. Awwww…. A sugar poem it is! ❤️ Though it’s sweet in reality your poem added more sweetness to it and therefore it’s toxic free!!! 🤭🤭

    Beautiful dear Ru. 😍🤗 I am so amazed that you can write a poem on anything! You rock girl! 👍

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    1. Sugary treats…
      Like Christmas sweets..
      Now feeling bloated…
      Toxically in my stomach floated…
      Thank you Preeths…
      You’re comments are sweet…
      Just like you…
      People like you are few….
      😍🎀😍🎀😍🎀😍🎀😍🎀😍

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        1. You are an absolute sweetheart…
          You’ve been like that from the start…
          Very good for my confidence and ego.
          I appreciate all the encouragement, you know?

          🎀😍🎀😍🎀😍😉😍🎀

          😉😉😉😎😎

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