The book of ‘Job’ #2

Why does God allow the suffering of the innocent?
Almost coercing one to believe He is maleficent. 
Well, the 'why' is still a big question.
Cannot decipher with certainty, the intention. 
But, thanks to Eileen's reply in the last part.
A reminder that hit me like a dart.
So, I decided to extend this bit into another part.
To add this point that I so conveniently forgot.

I think suffering brings about one of these responses.
People freeze and become too scared to tackle their losses.
Some others fight back, but come out sour and bitter.
And some broken people fight back and then help and teach others, become better.
Previously broken people who repair the broken are excellent at fixing.
As opposed to the kind who dwell in pain and keep on inflicting,
That same pain that grows and spreads as anger or jealousy.
Maybe even impatience, pride, intolerance, torture and misery.

If God gave me a choice,
and I could use my free will to decide,
would I have agreed to go through those trials?
Never, not in a million lives!
I'd just shudder and roll my eyeballs.
Probably Job would also reject them all.
But the ordeals taught me so much.
I sincerely wish He'd use a gentle feather touch.
But honestly, I doubt anything less dramatic would have much effect on me.
My entire life up until now has been a series of Bollywood movies.

It's true, I experienced things normal people never do.
And they weren't just one or two or a mere few.
I tell God I've already lived at least two full lives.
If I were to explicitly narrate my life stories,
there'd be at least five dramatic Bollywood movies.
All based on my life,
the film industry will really thrive!
And even if it began with a note,
'Based on a true story', if they wrote.
Nobody would believe.
Illogical and far fetched, to be perceived.

Everyone has a different learning curve. 
There is probably no way I'd learn better.
I had to feel this immense pressure.
But now I'm here and so much I learned.
Feel like the right I've earned to say 'God, I endured.'
In faith, I persevered. I finally chose and stuck with good over evil.
Those were some really painful needles.
If not subject to refinement, gold does not shine.
If not stored in dark caskets, it won't age into fine wine.
If not kept to ferment, the batter does not rise.
If you don't burn the sweet sugar, it will not caramelize.

Nobody chooses to walk on sulphur-laden burning coals.
But some experiences like that may make them whole.
God knows your potential. He even knows your heart.
Salvation has been His ultimate goal from the start.
He's letting you be groomed by life's atrocities.
Through it all, why the anxiety and curiosity.
There's no need to stress because the battle is already won.
You're wasting away fighting it, when it's already been done.
Walk through the fire with confidence.
Yes, it'll hurt but eventually you'll win.
The testing of our faith produces (maybe greater) virtues.
As long as you sustain in hope and pursue. 
Fire burns and cleanses.
From the ashes, the Phoenix rises.
Now living in and spreading this fire.
Becomes a priority desire...

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  1. Your post reminded me of Paul saying suffering produces endurance and endurance produces character and then I scrolled to the bottom and you have it! God reward you for this, I am in the middle of waiting for a bishop to approve my way of life as a Carmelite Hermitess and some days can be really hard when I see the ball in Our Lord’s court and all I can do is wait until He makes the next move. Mary is often times the only thing giving me the graces I need to not give up on Her Son dribbling the ball (haha). Let’s fight and gain endurance and character together dear friend, yes? 😊

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    1. Wow, a Carmelite Hermitess…..what inspired you to choose this way of life? I am so eager to know if it’s not too personal. Forgive me for being amazed.
      Sounds like a great plan…..together in Christ πŸ™πŸΌβœοΈπŸ™πŸΌ….Amenβ˜ƒοΈπŸ€©πŸ€©πŸ€©πŸ€©πŸŽ„

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      1. SO sorry for my late response my friend! How are you?:)

        long story short, I was a cloistered nun with a community and I found myself wanting more seclusion away from even a community if that makes sense? I just read how Saint Mary Magdalene lived the rest of her life in a cave after Our Lord rose from the dead and ascended into heaven! Isn’t that amazing? I obviously won’t be living in a cave, but hopefully a hermitage with in door plumbing (haha).

        Thank you for asking and for being so kind!

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        1. I’m great….I hope you are well too.
          Wow a cloistered nun….that is such a difficult vocation….it must have been so difficult for you….I think I knew someone from Intercessors of the Lamb….if I’m correct it’s a cloistered community too….somewhere in the US. I would love to hear more about this way of life….I find it very intriguing…..almost an impossible feat for me….but…..if I’m not overstepping my boundaries….may I ask….what prompted you to choose this vocation?

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          1. Well… let’s put it this way, I had to live and experience the cloister with a community to realize I wanted more seclusion entirely alone with Jesus and Mary away from even a community. I never would have known this if I didn’t live community life if that makes sense? Oftentimes God allows us to experience something only to discover our true desires. Experience is SO important! All I can say is it is pure love of Our Lord and His Mother and nothing else is what lures a soul to this way of life. If one does not choose that with this intent they will be totally unhappy and miserable. It’s a life of serving Christ directly at His feet. Many believe the only way to do that is by teaching or serving the poor, but is not Christ the Poorest of the poor? Who is there to serve Him directly? My other main reason is I love Mary with all my Heart and I want to dedicate my life to the triumph of Her Immaculate Heart ❀️

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            1. Beautiful…..I didn’t catch your name dear. It’s very touching to hear of your commitment and dedication to Jesus and Mary. I hope you get what you want soon. Most of us seek peace and joy in worldly pleasures that always misfire and love in things so self centered….you’ve got it all sorted…..bless you my friend….and Merry Christmas πŸ™πŸΌβœοΈπŸ™πŸΌ

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              1. You are SO very sweet and kind; I can’t thank you enough, Ruelha! My name in Carmel was Sister Rosa Maria of the Sorrowful Heart; I am named Jade but I am hoping to be Sister Jade Mary of the Sorrowful Heart whenever I get the bishop approval. Pray for me, I really don’t feel like I have everything sorted, God has been testing me a lot lately especially through the waiting. But I am grateful for you and your blog ❀ πŸ™‚ Merry Christmas!

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                1. I am agreeing with you in prayer in faith. So I will call you sister Jade Mary of the Sorrowful heart already. I know how horribly awful the ‘wait’ can be. I am so blessed and grateful to find you here sister Jade….God bless you and grant you your hearts desires in Jesus’s name. Amen….

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    1. Absolutely Mercyβ™₯️β™₯️β™₯️….He knows what we can handle….only He knows our hearts and has seen our future.
      Reminds me of a friend who went through some very traumatizing things but she endured and every time she cried to Hid because with all the faith and dedication in the world, it kept getting worse. Well, God taught her many spiritual principles through those 4 years and why her breakthrough didnt come to pass despite ….. She got so dead and weary byvtye last year, God made her a promise. He told her that most of her problems would end by March the next year. Around this time next year….that verse appears thrice in the Bible…. Eventually she learned quite a bit . And true to His word, March brought forth her breakthrough…..
      She would never choose the ordeals and tribulations but since she chose the right path….and endured…that taught her things through the process πŸ€©πŸ˜ƒπŸ™πŸΌ

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        1. 🀩😍🀩😍🀩😍🀩😍🀩
          The process….bitter-sweet it is …..
          Yes indeed….grateful for strength and graceeeeee….so much graceπŸ˜ŠπŸ€­πŸ™πŸΌβœοΈπŸ˜ŠπŸ€­


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