The Cranberry Dreams

This song from the 90s is stuck in my head. It’s called ‘Dreams’ by the Cranberries. It is the inspiration to the following poem. I have posted the lyrics and a video if you’d like to hear the song.

THE CRANBERRY DREAMS
I'm changing everyday.
I'm drifting from my old ways.
And all of my dreams,
that seemed like lifeless beams,
everyday they're changing,
and constantly evolving.

But, peace and joy,
amidst broken toys.
A different kind of happy,
even I don't completely savvy.

I know, I've felt like this before.
Smitten and infatuated to the core.
It's not so different. 
Still, more than sufficient. 
Oxytocin, dopamine and adrenaline.
Feel them travelling through my spleen.

He made me a promise. 
I trust him to be honest.
Some truths, he whispered in my ear.
That siphoned away my every fear.
He is smart and full of wisdom. 
And promised to make me a princess in his kingdom. 

Gosh, he's really handsome, inside-out.
Of that, there is absolutely no doubt.
He's gentle, good and kind.
I've fallen in love; I'm blind.
And the light of dazzling grace.
Shines upon his serene face.

But what really matters is that he loves me.
He will never desert me, never - absolutely!
He's got his palm tattooed with my name.
Inked in blood, of me, he's not ashamed.

But he keeps me free.
Freedom to just be.
Absolute freedom of choice,
to decide what I like and what's nice. 
We have a deeper connection,
Of genuine and real affection.

Always available to me; he's just a call away.
Meet me today, I can insist and say.
You're like a drug and I always want more. 
Withdrawal symptoms, impossible to ignore.
You can tell I'm the one falling.
Cannot ignore when my name he's calling.

I don't really believe in fairytales. 
Unhealed lacerations with rusty nails.
I no longer want to make myself vulnerable.
Because I always end up being miserable.
They've used my weakness against me.
Naked and cold like trash and debris.

But my mature soul is still falling.
On my knees, my heart is crawling.
Incorrigible, I want more of him.
Because without him now, life is dim.
More of his time;
more of his wine.

Just resting in his arms is so gratifying,
whether I'm laughing or if I'm crying.
I cannot turn away.
What I feel, is no longer grey.
I can never break up.
I love him more than make up.

I'm so addicted to you.
What did you do?
I love you; I say this openly. 
I won't deny you in front of friends or family.
But, I can't promote you.
Somehow, they don't like you.

They think you're a bad influence. 
I'll just let them watch and draw their own inference.
I cannot talk you up.
That won't work; not enough.
I'll introduce you differently.
We've got to handle this tactfully.

Now I'm telling you openly.
But you see right through me.
So, you already know it's true,
that I'm in love with you.
You know my every move before I even conceptualize. 
Because you have them on me, loving perpetual eyes.

I've been hurt before.
Those wounds probably still sore.
But, now you have my heart. 
From me already, it did depart.
Please don't let it fall and break.
More bandages and prosthesis, it can't take.

You're exactly what I've always wanted.
In everyone and everything, I've always been daunted.
You are the complete package. 
With you, there is no lackage.
You complete me,
just like Kintsugi. 

My every cell yearns for you now.
Can't fathom I ever lived without you, how?
But, now I'm already broken.
I'm sorry what you got is frozen.
Your awesomeness completes me.
But you received broken crumbs unnecessarily.

Still, thank you for finding me.
Because I can see things differently. 
Food is tasty.
Sleep is lovely.
I feel wiser, but younger.
I have found my treasure.

I can smile; I feel like dancing. 
I can't look elsewhere, none as enchanting. 
Is this love? It does feel real.
But I feel infatuated like some teenage superficial. 
I know we have a deeper connection.
And all you have for me is good intention.

I know the feeling is mutual; I take this liberty,
of saying so, because he even took the blame for me.
It's not one-sided.
This time I'm not blinded.
They say settle with someone who loves you more.
That kind of relationship lives on forevermore.

He has such an amazing mind.
So understanding and so kind.
He's never rude,
even when he should.
He could never hurt me.
Although at times we disagree.

And then, when he let's me fall.
I want to kick him in the shin, like a football.
He says he's just grooming me.
And all of this will just add to my beauty.
The kind that cannot age,
the type, make up cannot stage.

We have a strange kind of intimacy.
But he loves me so passionately.
When my soul is fast asleep,
my spirit is awake learning all he has to teach.
And with all of my dreams,
he's more than what it seems.
....more than it seems.

-RUELHA 
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Song lyrics:

Oh, my life
Is changing every day
In every possible way. And oh, my dreams
It’s never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems. I know I’ve felt like this before
But now I’m feeling it even more
Because it came from you. Then I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be. I want more
Impossible to ignore
Impossible to ignore. They’ll come true
Impossible not to do
Impossible not to do. Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
You’re what I couldn’t find. Totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me. Oh, my life
Is changing every day
In every possible way. And oh, my dreams
It’s never quite as it seems
‘Cause you’re a dream to me….Dream to me.

Source: lyricfind.com, Songwriters: Noel Anthony Hogan / Dolores Mary O’Riordan